I don't know what I thought chemotherapy was going to be like. I don't think anyone can prepare you for it. One minute you feel okay and the next minute your shivering, puking, feeling like your just gonna come unglued. Or at least that was how it was for me. Think Excorcist minus head spinning. Yeah...that sounds about right.
Before they had started running the chemotherapy drugs they went over the side effects and risk with me. I love how they always feel the need to add in that line "and possible death". Ummm, I have been diagnosed with Cancer...if you DON'T give me those stinking drugs I run the risk of "possible death", let's roll the dice shall we?
After going over side effects they let me know of the additional medicatons that they would be giving me to assist with pain management and nausea. Since I had done well with the platelet and blood transfusions I really didn't think I was gonna have a huge issue with the chemo. I was all like "I got this"!
Ignorance, really is the best kind of bliss.
About 6 hours into treatment I was having horrible nausea and they ordered compazine to help quell the overwhelming urges to vomit. I don't remember much after being given that medication. So I've had to rely on my mom to fill me in. Apparently I became extremely combative, I thought the nurses were trying to kill me and I was just generally going nuts.
My poor mother had been on pins and needles just trying to get here to be with me and here I was acting like a lunatic. Thankfully my mom stayed the night in the hospital with me which made me feel a bit better especially since where they had her bed was just on the other side of a plexiglass panel, so when I'd wake up panicked or scared wondering where the hell I was I could look over and see her sleeping and then I'd feel calm come back over me.